Thanks God

i will not talk about how awesome God it is
or How he change my life
or how He show me miracles
I just want to thanks him to all His plan
I thanks Him for every reminder of Him when i get sad
I thanks him for every reminder of Him every time i got excited
I thanks him to give me a power to look at a problem as a trial not as a punishment
I thanks him for every chance he give me to change
I thanks him for not creating me as a perfect man
I thanks him for not creating me as a perfect individual that fit in the society
I thanks him for giving me such a good hearing
I thanks him for a restless night that i got
I thanks him for how much attention i got for people
I thanks him to give me so much chance to think about this life
I thanks him for every chance that i can see people smile at my joke
I thanks him for this imperfect body in societies mind

but above all that
I thanks him to erase a word "blame" in my mind
for that i can always see people good side
for that i believe people are good
for that I believe in karma
for that i believe
I believe that when i get down
there is always someone who will wake me up
either you knock my heart and remind my of those days
or just a simple text message from my mom

I know it seems childish to do this
but i guess im being true to myself
sometimes i feel that this life is hard
with all the pressure you got
your soulmates that we must find with no clue whatso ever
with thoughts about future
with this reasoning
all the acts in a social world

i feel like i want to let this go
feel like i want to burst
when things get to personal and nobody you can talk to
coze i'm too scared they gonna make fun of me
for being to weak in this world
i cant handle jealousy or whatever that you called
i cant handle how people can treat others badly
i cant handle how this world works
but i cant complain much other than play along
as if this is just a level from a game that i must finish to elevated to the next floor

i'm tired but mind running around
i'm tired of this human bonding process
i'm sick of reality
i'm sick of how scary life is

hope 10 years from now
my life perspective will be completely different
assuming i'm still alive
assuming life not beat me up until i reach the ground

I wish I study at spore
maybe that part of me will be completely different
but who am i to change the past
still i miss that feeling

good night world
sorry for the complains
i promise i will not do this so often
only when nights come to meet sunrise
and i lay my head on my pillow with my minds floating half way accross the world

thanks God :D